Not go on

Today, my group made a small party at Tr's house. We were very fun and tired so much! Maybe I was the person who was most tired, I cooked and washed all dishes. And the third time, I went out with BL, but I did not say anything with BL. I saw BL and Ho talked together so much ...I felt jealous so much! I can not go on! Give up! I am tired!